you know honestly it's not even a bad birthday. people wished me and azmina even wrote it on the board and i got presents and stuff and i just can't deal with how not okay i am with all of this. i mean i just want to angst, but it's not as if there isn't an over abundance of whiny teenagers as it is. maybe my hair's the problem, maybe it was getting scolded by teachers, maybe it was this that whatever i couldn't care less. what's another sixteen year old whining about the existence of her life in the grand scheme of things? nothing. not even a blip.
for my birthday next year i want to NOT have my period during i would rather someone in my family dislocate a bone again.
The glorious and triumphant return of now-19 year old Blogger, the revival of a once-grand and dare I say influential webspace that produced daily content, and the crippling anxiety of a young woman who no longer has any time or motivation to write, and feels like any ability she had acquired in the past through repetition and sheer will alone is now slowly slipping out of her grasp. Brief history of the Blog and Blogger can be found here.
Here be personal journal entries, observations, slices of life, questions and conclusions, as well as exploration of social and political topics seen through the lens of a Malaysian Muslim, feminist, lesbian, Marxist, and horse enthusiast.