The pain feels so good.
And then I stop doing what I did and the pain becomes so excruciating.
I focus on the pain, building it all up inside me until I feel like I could burst.
After that, the process starts again.
Grinding my teeth, sucking on my teeth, moving my tongue around,
it all hurts but I still do it because the pain is just
(Don't take this seriously).
The glorious and triumphant return of now-19 year old Blogger, the revival of a once-grand and dare I say influential webspace that produced daily content, and the crippling anxiety of a young woman who no longer has any time or motivation to write, and feels like any ability she had acquired in the past through repetition and sheer will alone is now slowly slipping out of her grasp. Brief history of the Blog and Blogger can be found here.
Here be personal journal entries, observations, slices of life, questions and conclusions, as well as exploration of social and political topics seen through the lens of a Malaysian Muslim, feminist, lesbian, Marxist, and horse enthusiast.